TJ (oomazzo) wrote in guan_yu,
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Why???

OK, this is messed up. My grandma comes into MTM today. I see her and give her a hug. I've talked to her off and on for the past 8 or so years (long story). She told me we need to talk. OK, I'm thinking she gonna rag on me for not coming over and stuff. She says, "Tom, I'm dying" I'm like stunned. What am I supposed to say. She proceeds to tel me about 3 aneurysms in or on her brain. Now I dunno much about them, but I do know that if 1 blows YOUR DEAD. So again I'm like stunned. So we started talking about current things (my cousin has a BF, they been steady for 4 or so months now.) and remanising on past times, shit like that. But then she makes me promise her something. She made me promise her that my mom (her daughter) and my step-dad wouldn't be at her surgery and if she passes on, they can't be at the furneral..... WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How can you hate someone that much that you say that??? Especially your own daughter??? And she puts me in the middle of this. I have to be the message boy... I'm ready to cry at work. I was so pissed at her. I t took everything I had in me not to yell at her. I got really close to crying. How the fuck could she do that. How can you hate someone that much???? It makes no sense to me. All she told me was,"I've took so much shit from her. I turned 1 cheek and the other cheek. I have no more cheeks".

Ok, why??? My mom and my grandma wasn't always on good terms. They fought often. But thats what kids do, fight with their parents. It's fun. but I don't understand why they would hate each other like that. Their last blowout was over my stepdad. My mom hid him at first. My grandparents are really old fashion. Whites stay with whites, blacks stay with blacks, and so on (Yea, I guess I woulda got disowned with my last GF too HEE HEE) My stepdad is Black/African American. So what??? Does it matter that much??? People are people. An asshole is an asshole. A good person is a good person. Does skin color or race mater??? I think not. My last girlfriend is black, she was a good person.

But now I'm faced with the task of being the middle man. I gotta tell my fam the news. How do I tell them that then say,"Mom, grandma said you can't go"???? So fucking lost right now...
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